sobriety.revelations.reckoning
Late last week I drove out to middle of nowhere central FL. I love it out there. No traffic, just fields, trees, mist, cows, horses, and lemon groves. It’s so quiet; serene. The roads aren’t packed with people, pollution, or noise. You have room to breathe. I made a point to note the counties I […]
Leaving on a much needed road trip after more tattoo time today. This will hopefully complete 30+ hours of ink into flesh on my poor, sore, distressed right arm. Who knew in 2016 when I got the black and white half sleeve, how much would happen and how much time and money would be invested […]
Is #222 an auspicious number? Will my day be better off for it? I know at least one person who would give a resounding yes as a reply. I was talking about doing things yesterday; how it’s easy to stagnate and get stuck in a rut if we don’t consciously seek out new experiences. But […]
Even though this blog began as a recording of days, I rarely talk about sobriety. Part of that is because while I’m abstaining from drinking, smoking and social media, but I’m still a fan of the green stuff. Another reason is, it just feels anticlimactic. When you’re immersed in booze life it’s easy to see […]
I’ve been kicking and punching and fighting against reality for over two decades. When I see injustice, unfairness, I want to do what I can to correct the universe. When I see people in pain or on the wrong course, I want to right them; pick them up, turn them around and place them gently […]
Watching the movie Little Things. How is Denzel Washington elderly? Where has time gone? He’s right though; it’s the little things that will get you caught. It’s also the little things that will get you through the day. I was in an abusive relationship when I was 20. Before I knew better. I’d known him […]
I’m so annoyed right now. That’s not accurate. I’m like a seething cauldron of acrimony. A quadruple helix of anger, frustration, anxiety and resentment. I’m supremely the fuck over everything in my sphere; exasperated, displeased, annoyed and petulant. I need a break. I need to jump out of a plane. I need my real, far […]
I was at Walmart buying produce today. I was tired and didn’t feel like weighing everything and looking up bar codes so I avoided the quicker route of self check out. It was busy. I got on a line and not 3 minutes later the light in the lane next to me flashes on. Serendipitous. […]
I was 8 or 9 when my mom took me to see my first magic show. David Copperfield. Be still my heart. Hundreds of people. Ducks and chickens on stage. A large scale, hundred thousand dollar production. It was awesome. I had practiced and perfected all of the tricks in my Blackstone magic kit; and […]
I can’t get this one job opportunity out of my fucking skull. It just reverberates and taunts me. I hate the cold. I feel like it’s a personal affront to walk outside and be accosted by freezing temperatures, wet snow and icy wind. I grew up in Maine and lived there again in my late […]
