sobriety.revelations.reckoning
So I had the Salvation Army scheduled to come pick my furniture up from the old beach place for the last 6 weeks. I took off work as they could only give me a 4 hour window; either morning (8-12) or afternoon (12-4). And then early Monday came around and they cancelled the pick up. […]
Remember when I said I felt strangely numb about leaving my 7 year beach home and moving to the new furnished sublet on the water? Well that all culminated yesterday in a meltdown over a copiously dirty toaster oven. When I used to pet sit years ago for a millionaire on Treasure Island and stay […]
I have no idea why I’m not freaking out about leaving this place I’ve called home for 7 years. As crazy as it sounds, that’s longer than I’ve ever lived anywhere else in all my four decades. I expected to be my usual maudlin, not a fan of change, waterworks Pisces self. Steeped in nostalgia […]
The song below is “I’d Rather Die” by the Tramp Stamps. Regardless of what you think of them, and the controversy currently surrounding the group; the song is catchy as hell. And it’s a message GenZ girls desperately need: do you boo. Own your sexuality; don’t act any given way simply to get the approval […]
Someone please steal this campaign/marketing idea. Seriously. I’m not in advertising, but this is good. There’s this supplement powder called Calm, it’s magnesium; chill and effective. I opened a packet yesterday and it spilled out over the counter next to a credit card. White powder, credit card; mind goes to coke (don’t judge me, I […]
I was outside reading the bravest memoir of the last decade, the scathing Blow Your House Down by Gina Frangello, listening to wind chimes I’d coveted before bringing home. These particular windchimes used to live outside of a small retail shop downtown. When it was closing, I was walking by and lucked out at their […]
I think we need to remove the stigma attached to suicidal thoughts; because everyone I’ve ever known has had them. I think about suicide on a weekly basis. Not how I would personally do it, detailed plan descriptions or sketched out blueprints; but in a detached, philosophical, dare I say factual way. Death is easy. […]
Not pertaining to rehab; though it might as well. I have been off booze, cigs, social media and kratom for a long time now but I swear to god I still manage to find other creative ways to be deviant and self destructive. I finally went to a specialist for my tennis injury and headed […]
I grew up in a tiny town in Maine. It was an amazing place to be a kid; all nature, big skies, wild animals, fresh food from the garden and lots and lots of snow. I lived there again (and learned to drive stick) in winter 2005. It was less charming as an adult, but […]
So I have 43 (ha! appropriate) days to secure a FT job and a place to live, move all of my assorted shit (not much but still arduous unless it’s right down the road), start said new job, change mailing address, get a new license and settle somewhere. Or I could just move back up […]
